voice;

[ideismo]

[There's a moment of quiet before he starts, the sort of thing that's only really audible if you're listening for it; it's been some time since Alexei has addressed any number of people at once, and while it's something he used to be accustomed to, it's also something that he's rather out of practice with.

So there's quiet, and the awkwardness is palpable when he does start, and he doesn't bother introducing himself; maybe some will recognize his voice, maybe not. It matters fairly little to him in the scheme of things.]

I don't normally request guidance, and particularly not regarding personal matters, so I pray I may be forgiven for the vagueness of the question. But I suppose that the recent conditions on Monsun have me contemplating things.

Is it...acceptable, I suppose, to continue to want something that you have no right or claim to anymore?

[...And apparently that is all for now.]

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[ideismo]

If it were something so easily let go of, it wouldn't be something worth asking about to begin with. It's not a good thing to dwell on for anyone, I'd wager, but it's something I've remained quiet about for quite some time.

[There is something about this that is very "wow, thanks, I'm cured," and honestly he's a little surprised that neither Schwann not Yeager punched him for this kind of thing back when those sorts of sentiments mattered.]

[a_shadow]

Sure, and I get all that. It's not easy.

But it's time to stop.

[ Tex says this like she herself doesn't have things in her thought life that she continually dwells on. The difference is she didn't make a post asking whether it was okay. ]

[ideismo]

[Meanwhile, Alexei has never properly processed a feeling in his life.]

Merely letting go of it doesn't seem right to me. It's...something of an obligation by now, I suppose.