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[ideismo]

[There's a moment of quiet before he starts, the sort of thing that's only really audible if you're listening for it; it's been some time since Alexei has addressed any number of people at once, and while it's something he used to be accustomed to, it's also something that he's rather out of practice with.

So there's quiet, and the awkwardness is palpable when he does start, and he doesn't bother introducing himself; maybe some will recognize his voice, maybe not. It matters fairly little to him in the scheme of things.]

I don't normally request guidance, and particularly not regarding personal matters, so I pray I may be forgiven for the vagueness of the question. But I suppose that the recent conditions on Monsun have me contemplating things.

Is it...acceptable, I suppose, to continue to want something that you have no right or claim to anymore?

[...And apparently that is all for now.]

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[devilstongue]

That sounds like the very creation of 'it depends'.

[ideismo]

Humor me and explain how so?

[devilstongue]

Of what it is, of course. There's a lot of things you can want that you cannot have. Objects, why not. People, less so. Emotions? Even more complicated.

Nobody has the right to anything in this world, but the circumstances are what tells the legitimacy of 'claiming' or the lack thereof.

[ideismo]

That's... No, that's fair. I can assure you that I'm not particularly interested in possessing people's affections, or anything like that. I'm largely disinterested in what others think of me; I always have been.

[Well. That's. Mostly true. Not entirely, but no one is ever entirely honest, in his experience.]

It's a specific circumstance, I suppose. An intangible endgoal that's out of my reach.

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[journalname]

[boy, that's a whole mood]

I do not know, but I can certainly understand the feeling.

[ideismo]

[it is a whole-ass mood and he doesn't like it, honestly.]

...I suppose it's a complicated question, at the end of the day. The emotions that come with it equally so.

[journalname]

Yes, I suppose it would be.

[That seems to be the way of it.]

I am available if you would like to talk about it. In person too, if you would prefer.

[eudaimonikos]

You mean morally? Seems like it doesn't matter, if you aren't doing anything.

[thank you michael for the one decisive answer]

[ideismo]

...It's nothing I can do anything about, for what it's worth.

[eudaimonikos]

So there's no problem!

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[a_shadow]

[ She says the words very firmly: ]

No. It's not.

[ideismo]

[New, but not altogether surprising. In a way, it's good to hear it, maybe.

Even so.]

And what leads you to such a conclusion, if I may?

[a_shadow]

Because I know what it feels like to be the object of something like that and it feels like shit.

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[yakyuuman]

If you really want it back, but someone else is the new owner of it, then nope? I mean, raising wars or destroying everything around you, including your friendships, for that single thing... is not worth it, is it?

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[ideismo]

[Give him a moment, because holy shit? Holy shit.]

I don't particularly...have friendships to destroy, but I imagine that's beside the point.

[...Anyway.]

It's not so much something I want back as it is something I've never been permitted to have.

[yakyuuman]

[ Holy shit is pretty much the reaction to whoever talks with Jyushimatsu. It's normal. ]

You don't have friends? How sad! But anyway, is it by law that you can't have it? I mean, if someone else's got it you'd be a thief, but what the heck, everyone was a thief at some point in life! I think you'll be fine if you wanna keep wanting to want it!

[ He says all that without a single pause. ]

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[galrarm]

[ Shiro's answer comes with a significant measure of confidence to it. ]

That's a pretty complicated question, but as long as you aren't hurting anyone in your pursuit of it, I don't see why not.

[ideismo]

...It isn't precisely something I can openly pursue in the first place. It conflicts with other obligations I have.

[Unfortunately, he almost adds on to that, but he isn't going to let himself go there today.]

I don't intend to harm anyone, however.

[galrarm]

Then, I don't think you have much to worry about.

Still, it must be weighing pretty heavily on you if you're asking about it.

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[postictal]

what is someone gonna call the emotions police on you

[He thinks that Connor has maybe been infecting his lexicon. Maybe.]

[ideismo]

Whether you see merit in the question or not, it is what it is.

[postictal]

no one can stop you from wanting something except you
feeling guilty about wanting it doesn't change that

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[uptightness]

It's not like emotions have an on and off switch.

[Speaking from experience...]

[ideismo]

I admit I'd find life to be preferable if they did, sometimes.

[uptightness]

You might get used to it and always leave them off though.