Please, don't berate yourself for any actions. It is normal to get back to talking about... this, about a neutral space and not... well, all that.

[Sometimes you just put all your feelings into a box and then you die, thanks. Aziraphale might get some of that level.]

It is simply quiet back where I live, in a way it has never been. I'm not sure what to do about it, or if I... can do anything about it, truly. It is likely just to be me, holding the memory of what once was.