[ It was, but Nezumi's angry. He's not allowing it to show, and he even knows Shion has no control over it, but he's angry. Much of that anger is at himself. He'd done a few stupid things with Shion in mind, and now, he was even further from Shion than before. What the point? He could have gotten hurt, killed, and in the end, Shion wouldn't be here today anyway.
He really had been stupid. Stupid, stupid, stupid. That's why he wants to say that scavengers can have anything they want. He doesn't need it anyway. The more distance he puts between himself and Shion, the better.
Maybe he can keep it to remind himself that getting close to someone will only lead to pain when they leave, be it from death, abandonment, or something else. How much of that is a justification to keep parts of Shion close to him?
All of it.
So, he should say it. Nezumi knows the cues to play. His voice can easily pretend to have no interest. He doesn't care what Tim thinks of him so the words should come easily.
It's too long. He's already gone too long without speaking. The silence is speaking for him. Nezumi needs to say something.
Things aren't people. He's told Shion that himself, mocking him for making the imitation graves for people who have already gone before him.
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He really had been stupid. Stupid, stupid, stupid. That's why he wants to say that scavengers can have anything they want. He doesn't need it anyway. The more distance he puts between himself and Shion, the better.
Maybe he can keep it to remind himself that getting close to someone will only lead to pain when they leave, be it from death, abandonment, or something else. How much of that is a justification to keep parts of Shion close to him?
All of it.
So, he should say it. Nezumi knows the cues to play. His voice can easily pretend to have no interest. He doesn't care what Tim thinks of him so the words should come easily.
It's too long. He's already gone too long without speaking. The silence is speaking for him. Nezumi needs to say something.
Things aren't people. He's told Shion that himself, mocking him for making the imitation graves for people who have already gone before him.
Damn it. Damn Shion. Damn himself.]
I'm taking them instead.