Golly doesn't even describe half of it.

[There's a pause here. She ruminates over the facts in her head, for the hundredth time.]

She... wanted to prove that she could be more than what her people wanted her to be. They didn't want her to be creative, so she decided to leave them and make a show... and it wasn't meant to have people dying for real in it. But that didn't stop her. In some way, I guess she thought she couldn't stop, but that only made things worse for her when the truth finally came out in the end.

She lost some very good friends. Because her pride got the better of her.